I have cancer

Its been a long time since I blog. A lot of changes, challenges, lessons...

First. Hi! I am now back online. hopefully to keep this blog in a regular basis. hehehe....

As you all know I had a baby, she is now 2 years old, wow it is really that long since I last blog. hehehehe she is beautiful, smart, witty, active, pretty much every toddler should be. I am lucky to have her.

And from the title of this blog... yes I have cancer.

There where no signs, its just a regular checkup that got into multiple lab result, operations, and now i am having chemo sessions.

I have an Ovarian Cancer Stage 3C. 

Delivery

Midnight of September 17, no solid food nor liquid intake. I ate my last meal around 11:30pm it was a cheeseburger from McDonalds hehehehe.

September 18: 7:30 I am brought to the delivery room for preparation. I am calming myself. I am very thankful that the staff and nurses are very friendly... I feel comfortable. I was given a twilight anesthesia, it is where my lower part of the body (from lower chest to my feet) will be affected by it. I felt a little pain and discomfort because I need to be curled up. As soon as the anesthesia kicks in, they tied my arms and start operating.

I hate the feeling of being tied, thats where I feel anxious and nervious... I saw my blood pressure is rising, then I remind myself to stay calm, breath and that if I dont get my BP in control they will give me a general anesthesia w/c will add up to my hospital bill. hehehe then i see my bp starts to drop and normalized... haay thank you....

I did not feel anything as they cut my tummy and shortly after I hear my baby cries.

Wow it was a strange feeling. She is ok. Yeey!!! I saw some of the nurse and doctor (her pedia) took her to clean her. As I wait for my baby...I am expecting that I will feel groggy or something, but no, I am still alert and active. I feel the pressure in my tummy I dont know what my Obgyn doing there as if they are pushing something inside me. Soon after the nurse came back with my baby... they place my little girl on my chest. They say that the baby need to have skin to skin contact with the mother to bond.

I can see her little face, hands and toes...counting her fingers....wow she looks normal.... I feel relieved and happy. The feeling is unexplainable...pwede pala maging super happy and proud ka... na gusto mo mg mayabang sa buong mundo na "ito ang baby ko ang ganda ganda oh!!!" hehehehe then after a while, they took my baby.

My Obgyn, still working on something in my tummy, the pressure of pushing is still there. As if someone is punching my stomach. I vomit a little, felt chills and shiver... maybe because I am naked and the aircon is set on high.

The whole procedure just last about less than 30mins. After the operation, they sent me to the recovery room where I stayed about an hour or more. They say that I need to raise my feet for me to be release to my room. So I tried to lift my foot... little by little...ohhh it was difficult. That's when I feel so tired... I took a nap...then when I woke up, try to lift my feet...YEEY I did it.

Then I went back to my room, my hubby expect that I am groggy and haggard but no... I am smiling and excited to see my hubby and family. I am waving at him pa nga eh. the nurses carried me from my stretcher bed to my bed... this is the so painful!

I am so awake that I had to post pics of my baby online pa...hehehe I saw the pictures of her in the NICU. I am so so happy.

Everyone meet our baby bear..

proud daddie

Journey to motherhood

January 29, 2013 is when we found out that I am pregnant. It was 5am in the morning my hubby is still sleeping when I woke him up. We did not go for work that day, instead we went to my Obgyn for my first prenatal check up. My doctor verified that I am really pregnant. YEEY!!!!

First trimester : 

It not that smooth. I am vomiting every night, sleepy in the afternoon, and sometimes dizzy and moody. I am thankful of my hubby he is very patient and understanding with my mood and cravings. hehehe 

I was advised not to drink coffee. huhuhu

Second trimester: 

April 6, 2013 my hubby birthday.... I was confined for a week due to spotting. I am urinating and when I stood up, I saw 2-3 drop of blood in my undies. We texted my doctor and advice that I need to be rushed in the hospital to be safe. Thank God my baby is safe. 

During this trimester, we found out that I cannot deliver my baby normally and it will be CS due to my multiple mayoma in my uterus. There are 5 mayoma and 3 of them are big. 2 mayoma are blocking the birth canal, one is on the top of the uterus, one is on the left side and the other is at the back. It will be difficult for me to sleep to my sides. 

On my series of sugar test (50 and 75 ml) I am diagnosed that I have a gestational diabetes. I need to take insulin and monitor my sugar daily 3x a day. The insulin and the strips for my sugar test are very expensive. haaaayyyy 

In one of my ultrasound test, I am told that I have a placenta previa totalis grade 2. this is where my placenta is blocking the cervix. 

And because all of these complications, I am categorized as a high risk.  

Third trimester: 

Early of my third trimester, I experience contractions and I was advised by my doctor to take my maternity leave and be bed rest as much as possible. No stairs, walking, standing... so I went back to my home at Fairview. It is a difficult time for my hubby and I, because he is staying at his home at Project 8 during weekdays, and he will be with me at Fairview on a weekends. I hate sleeping without him by my side.  

On our Congenital Anomaly scan, we found out that we are having a baby girl!!!

Here are some of the ultra sound: 

And this scan my doctor found out that my amniotic fluid is running low, so I am confined in the hospital for hydration. I stayed there for a week. My doctor injected 2 shots of steroids for my baby's lungs so that it will be developed if the baby came out premature. We are also advised that I need 10+  of blood donors when I deliver the baby. My condition is very complicated and my doctor just want to be ready for the worst case scenario.

Worse case scenario: is when I deliver the baby premature and one of my mayoma burst or if my bleeding cannot be controlled. She may perform a myomectomy and remove my uterus completely. =(

Then after 3 weeks I am confined in the hospital due to bleeding and contractions. This is a very scary experience, I thought I am about to give birth... my baby is still premature, 34 weeks. She need to be in 37 weeks so that everything is develop. The contractions are controlled and the bleeding stopped. But my doctor told me not to leave the hospital and wait until the 37th week there. 

So I stayed in the hospital almost a month and our bill ... our bill haaay... MAHAL!!!